Cheers

When people gets enough sleep, it's very different.

I'm not sure that's the cause of it, but it seems the mood is pretty bright today.
Even the songs I heard sounded not the same.
I guess the heart of one person really changes everything around him.

Xmas is coming! (It's one month from now though...)
I wonder how's this Christmas going to be.
I love the feeling of Christmas, even since I was a little kid.
Even though my family doesn't really care about it, I could get excited all over, decorate my desk, get Xmas CDs, shopping and such.
Christmas for me is a very joyful celebration, and at the same time, a very holy kind of feeling.
It's pure, innocent.

Thanks for the friends that keep supporting me recently when I felt depressed,
I felt stupidity in a way.
Sorry for all the inconvenience bros and sis.
Cheers.
Thanks guys.

Till then,
~BrightAnDre~

影片分享 - 《秋喜》

电影名称：秋喜
导演：孙周
编剧：王力夫 孙周 刘琛 王熠
主演：郭晓冬 孙淳 江一燕 王雅捷 孙敏 秦海璐
国内首映：2009-10-14
电影类型：剧情 谍战

在等待《风声》的电影之时，我看了这部类似的电影。个人觉得虽然技术不怎么样，但流畅度，故事的意思，艺术表达得很不错。
影片设于民国1942年在广州，涉及了共产党与国民党的纠纷。
剧情大概是讲述一位广播电台的技术人员晏海清，同时也是来自共产党的间谍如何在十四天里展开夺人心扉的惊险经历。
细节就让观众们自己去寻个明白和感受吧。

我个人感到很“震撼”，应该用这个形容词吧， 中国人如何让一个不起眼的点带出了深厚的意义。
比方说，在影片里有提到秋喜（晏海清的仆人）希望可以换个名字因为妓女都是用这个名字让她感到自己很不纯洁。
晏海清却和她解释说她的名字并不是不好，只是世代变了。（当时我完全佩服他的说法）
之后发现怎么秋喜的头发那么长呀？
单纯的秋喜说了一句很经典的话，让我笑得肚子痛。
“鸦片能让人快活，男和女的在一起也能快活!"
说着就在她主人面前想要脱衣，可是她只是单纯的希望主人不在食用鸦片。
有点无奈的是，最后很多人都丧命了。。。
如果世界都和平不就好了，没需要杀害那么多无辜的生命。
感到了当时残忍的一面。




感慨。
满不错，可是有些人应该会觉得闷。

~白色安德烈~

Release

I need guidance.
What I'm going to write below is for my imaginary friends that are closer than my family.
After all this while, I strove to the center, desperately made as many friends as I can because I know myself well that loneliness is my biggest weakness.
However, I kept myself quiet from people in the recent days.

I've been waiting...

To tell the truth, I've uncountable friends, even more than my own fingers.
But what I am search... I WAS searching, are some friends that share most of our own secrets, do activities together, have a position in their heart like a family, or something like that.
After filtering, there is zero result.
It has been long time for me to receive a message like "How are you?", "Are you alright?", "You seemed not so cool today, what happened?" , or dot, dot, dot.
Worse case, false hope. I gave up. No more hopes from promises.
You might found out how desperate I was if you know that I even imagine the strangers that surrounding me in KTM as my best friends just to have the moment of happiness.

Even my Facebook notifications from friends are getting less.

Maybe my requirements of having friends like that are too much?
I've seen a horoscope article saying that most Aries have big bunch of friends, but friends that truly close to them are almost zero, because of their attitude.
Great. A loner.

Seems to be a quiet day for me.

A person that full of confident as I am is going to give up.
Continue talking loudly in front of people act like nothing happens might be the best solution.
Giving people worries is worse than giving only myself.
*Laughs* I might get some stomach illness because being too depress inside.

After writing a bunch of words, I felt so much better.
It's lucky for me to know how to write.
Move on... move on...
Friendship is hard to understand as well.

~BrightAnDre~

钢琴 · 感情

最近我快发疯了...
完全找不到自我...
还在努力地寻找失去的轨道...
我此刻必须Focus重要而紧急的事物。
压力偏大，来自各方面的...
有时觉得自己很没用，才开始就有压力了。
平时很自然笑嘻嘻地对着别人，
自己独处时竟然笑不出。
说不出发出内心的心里话。
还是我太投入“悲鸣曲”了。

上天可能在提示我吧，让我看见了世间无常，让我再度提醒自己其实很幸福。

今天做了不该做的事，控制不了自己的情绪。
知道自己有点不对劲，一笑而过跑回自己的角落。
明白了，知道了，也有了答案，部分的问题都解决了。
明天又是新的一天，迎接另一个我。

我时时提醒我自己，现在对人不能发出红色的，对琴可以。
而且陶瓷和花盆差别很大。
每次都把自己想成很烂，很多发展的空间才行。
只会弹琴的机器是不好过的。

写来写去，感觉有很多矛盾。
完全不知道想表达什么。
现在的心情有点复杂，很难表达出来。
可能我的表达能力本来就很差。

其实我的文字里藏了很多心底话，是需要时间去想，去了解，去猜测，甚至去想象。
我本来就还是个小孩。
对我没耐性的，只好祝福你们。

我国的熊并没有频临绝种，因为我是其中一只。
不想爱与被爱，也没人爱的菜熊。

~白色安德烈~

Autumn

To tell the truth, I don't wish anybody to read this post. In fact, I don't think many people will read my blog, I guess it's fine.
I might hurt some people feelings, so I would like to apologize at first.

Some people outside my house, crossing over the lands and seas, viewing a totally different scenery while looking out through the window as I am.
Golden leaves falling off from the trees, people walking with thick sweater, or with scarf around their neck, old woman sitting on a bench throwing seeds towards the pigeons, these are the images reflected through their eyes and not mine.
This is Autumn.
A season with the lonely feeling.
What I saw is not fallen leaves but fallen raindrops. Watching them falling down makes my heart shrunk.

I can feel that I'm being left out but I can't provide answers like why? who? or what sort ever.
Maybe I have been isolated myself from practicing, maybe I'm just a tool for people to heat up the atmosphere, maybe my friend cycle is really small.
Maybe I am a loner after all.
I can't do any assumption but opinions.

Studies, work and for some reasons, my social cycle is getting smaller and smaller.

It's not the end of my chapter, it's just a very short interval in my life.
The interval that I hate.
I didn't send casual messages to people for quite a time...

~BrightAnDre~

Oh My God

I can't think of any suitable titles, so here you go a totally irrelevant content.
It's raining again... wait, it's GOING to rain, well it's turning to a raining day anyway.
I thought that I'm busy, the fact that I might not as busy as some people but still I'm creating myself some stress.
It can't be help, I did that naturally =.=
Yeah, I know it's not good for health but what to do. I'm trying to change that.

I'm like chasing the time, just that when I thought I'm sitting in front of the computer for half an hour, I was "amused" that I actually sat for 3 hours.
Can I just FREEZE the clock for at least ONE day?
I mean, yeah I can freeze my clock any time, but I can't freeze the TIME.

Oh yeah, the freaking moral presentation, it's like watching horror films at the wee hours.
My moral presentation's title - Death Penalty and Punishment (Now you know why I've said that.)
I don't know why this semester I can't help a lot in group works but I try my best to co-operate and give what sort ever help that I could give.

Just some here and there about my recent stuffs.
AND... I guess someone is too free (envy... =.=) and glad that we have time to have breakfast or lunch together.
Yeah, we don't normally have time to meet each other.

Cool, time to do my stuffs?

~BrightAnDre~

Should

By this time I am supposed to be helping out and learn how to function the sound system at Gong Xiu Chu.
However, my exam is coming next month and I think I should put more effort on my studies right now.

Just now I called Shi Bo trying to inform him that I won't be following him learning the sound system this month and I will try to follow up on the following month.
He was busy and I left him a phone message.
It's expected for him to not reply but I'm worried about that he doesn't understand my message.

Anyway, I'm awfully tired. (Awfully?)
I'm totally exhausted. (From what?)
Waking up early, stressing myself for no reason, bloody KTM, annoying sounds here and there.
A bit stress from studies, not much confident to get very good results...
Tomorrow is a better day! (Hopefully)

My blog has became a rojak blog... the combination of Chinese and English...

Till then,
~BrightAnDre~